I Love Being Young & Cool
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What a strange time to be alive. Every day feels like a dissociative blur of bingewatching, studying for finals, and scrolling through Pinterest on my laptop. In a world that feels like it’s inevitably ending I’ve been seeking for joy in the mundane. I find so much peace in my day to day now. Each wake and bake or sunset drive helps me remember that because everything I do is “meaningless” within the context of the whole world so I must attribute it meaning in my own life. As my adolescence slips by I feel more and more like i’m living in a 2013 Lorde song. Quitting my job was the best thing that happened to me, thank god I was financially literate at 16 because It’s nice to have worked so hard for so long and actually have something to show for it. Since then i’ve been living for me for the first time in a while. Driving around listening to music as the sun is setting, holding hands while walking, climbing mountains, getting my hair wet, it’s all exciting and beautiful. I’ve found the only way to stay sane is to do something that makes me feel alive every day. Whether it’s eating a nectarine with my coffee by the creek, painting even though i’m not good at it, or listening to music while greening out in my bed. These are the things that keep me connected to my life. Of all the years I’m going to roam this earth it’s possible that none of them will ever feel as intense and magical as 18 which has given me a nostalgia for what i’m living right now. The friends I have, the girls I date, the songs I listen to, the movies I watch, everything i’m doing now for the first time and haven’t done yet. Will it ever be as good as it is now?
In my pursuit to reach the pinnacle of teenage-dyke-ness I’ve returned to dying my hair pink, daydreaming about a patchwork tattoo sleeve and wearing sunglasses indoors. I truly don’t think words can describe how “me” I feel after I get the perfect pastel pink hair, I feel truly unstoppable. A combination of mane and tale conditioner, Arctic fox Virgin Pink, Cosmic sunshine, and a good purple-shampoo afterwards has resulted in my favorite pink to date! It makes me want to post pictures with a really obnoxious 2010’s vignette. I might not be who 15 year old me wanted to be but I sure as hell am who 5 year old me wanted to be and I can live with that. At the end of the day, I will get out of my parents house and live the whimsical fairy life of my dreams. Until then, I’ll be getting high in my room and writing into the void of the internet in my pajamas. XOXO, until next time! Remember not to waste the gift that is your youth being boring and hating yourself!!
Cohen <3
